I really can’t think of anything to write tonight. It was an odd sort of day. I woke up late after having some really crazy dreams. It took me awhile to wake up. It’s been gray, abysmal and snowing here for the last few days. I’ve really just slogged through the gray day, in which it took me awhile to wake up. I’ve done a lot of reading today, but this is the first writing. At least I’m writing now.
The feeling that the winter is going on too long, and I just don’t want to get out of bed and do anything veil is falling around me. Acedia is setting in. Sloth is getting comfortable. But I am keeping up with some of my routines and rituals: prayer, centering prayer, making the bed, cooking, and doing a load of laundry. Although I need to think about eating regularly more. Daily life is full of routines and ritual that make daily living sacred. Acedia wants says, “It’s not worth it. You’re not worth it. You’ll have to do it all tomorrow? Why bother?” But we have to bother because we are important. Our bodies are important. Our homes are important. Our souls are important. And these facets of life must be attended to. They must be given attention and kept every day.
This is why I need to write. Writing is important to me. It always has been. That is why I must break out of this acedic funk that says “Why bother? Who’s going to read it?” I bother because it is a part of who I am. It is important because it’s one of the ways I feed myself, take care of myself, cherish myself. It doesn’t matter if it’s not read. That’s not what makes the ritual of writing important. It’s important for the simple reason I like doing it.
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Thank you. I let The Hubby know you like the new layout. He’s my webmaster.
I think I’m going to need to invest in a sunlamp this coming year. I’ve tried new lightbulbs, but they haven’t seemed to do the trick.
Wow. This really resonated with me. And reaffirms my decision to start writing again after my long hiatus.
I am enjoying being back in the blogosphere. I have some catching up to do, reading what’s been on your heart recently. But I want you to know that I adore the new layout. What a fantastic photo.
Oh, and I would suggest investing in a sunlamp. My brother-out-law gave us one before we moved to Edmonton and it has been my salvation this past winter.
Thanks Sally and Kate. Kate, I always think I’ll get so much work done in winter too, but I don’t. You’re right, inspiration comes from being out and about and filling the cup back up.
It’s always nice to know you’re not on your own.
I could really relate to what you’ve said as well. Giving up is often a choice that is too easy for me, especially if there’s no support coming from anybody else. But I think if you’re passionate about something, you just gotta do and others will catch on eventually and be inspired by your passion.
Every winter I fool myself by thinking I’ll be able to get so much writing done, as I try to spend as little time outside in the cold as possible! But my inspiration comes from working in my garden and meeting people from the neighbourhood while hanging out on the front porch. It’s hard to find motivation to get out of the house! Springtime, if you’re reading, please come soon!!
Oh goodness the really resonated with me, thanks for the reminder that daily routines and rituals are important…